I'm really curious how you plan on starting a game, even a small one, when you've been in a game for years and literally do less than the bare minimum in it. Most months you take AC hits because you don't tag enough, other months you're on hiatus and scrape by, you're incredibly insular, and when you do tag nothing of value happens even among your castmates. If you can't even stay interested in what you're supposed to already be doing and for YEARS, how do you expect to open a game, mod, and presumably be a player in it with any amount of success?